I’ve set my goals and now it’s time to execute them. I’m going to accomplish this and live the life I’ve always dreamed of.
What are the goals I’ve set for myself?
Well first, is to achieve a better relationship with the things I feel are holding me back.
I have a huge dependency on technology, such as things like television, video games, social media, and substances to try and make myself feel better. Because of this I see these as obstacles in my way to achieve what I want.
My brain see’s things that I would normally do to better my life as boring. Nothing gives me the dopamine hit like a few episodes of my favorite show, or a few rounds on my favorite game at the time. Because of this I started to consume a ton of self help, and personal development content. I would try to execute the things I learned and failed because it just was not fun to me. These were all just things to give me that easy hit of dopamine.
The goals I’ve set for myself are no screens outside of work and writing. This means no social media, no video games, no Anime, and no Youtube. I’ve decided to take it a step further. I’m cutting out substances that also give me that quick hit of dopamine, like alcohol, cannabis, refined sugars, and caffeine. I’m going to do all of this for a week, and in order to make sure I follow through with this, I’ve decided to go on a work trip with my wife so I lessen the chance of failure.
Why am I afraid I’ll fail if left alone at home?
Well first and foremost, I have ADHD. I know this isn’t an excuse, but if I am left at home, alone for a week to my own devices I’ll slip. I just don’t have that natural self control others do. Whether it be succumbing to peer pressure, or I just have a bad day at work and need to let off some steam. I know it would be a struggle without her support, and me being in a different environment.
The whole purpose of this is to starve myself of as much instant gratification as I can, in order to reset and experience pleasure from more simple things. If I even give myself a chance to get that hit I know I’ll take it.
So let’s keep putting this to the test and see if it works. I mean so far I’m showing results, I’ve written here on Medium for three days straight and plan on keeping that up. It’s one of those things that I’ve always wanted to do and just didn’t find it entertaining enough with all the other external distractions.
Day 2 Successful..
